journey in siloam :P

The last I posted on this was on one of d days that I hate the most every year since the year 2002.Despite being my favourite month somehow the month April brings back a lot of memories.The sweet memories of April n also the worst memories ever in my life.Ok enough of that.Its time to get on to what I have to say 4 2day.

Last week  was a long long week for me.On ‘dat’ particular day I started vomiting n purging after lunch.By 8 I went ti the hospital to get myself examined,I was given one bottle of  infuse.By the time I was home it was about 11,I took my medicine n I tried to sleep.Sleeping was far,I vomited out again n the whole cycle started  again.At around 3am I was admitted into the hospital for the 1^st time of my life.I knew it was gona be a totally new experience for me.The 1^st few days life was quite tough there,I had fever n uncountable times of toilet rounds,complications due to dehydration..phewww I duwan talk bout it.(i jus did *rolls eyes*)

Well as long as I have been there I was taken care of really well.The paramedics were very kind to me,they were professionals.It was a nice hospital,facilities were good.Lucky me I had the television right in front of me.hehe..most of the time spent there was by sleeping.

While being there I realized bout facts about people n life.I learnt few things bout my family,friends and those who I never knew before.One of d major things I would say is that when u are abroad,away from ur home away from ur family.All u have is ur friends that u came with,friends u stay with and study with.They are ur closest family and trust me they understand you more than anything.They are those who are there for u to send u to the hospital anytime of the day,sacrificing their sleep,sacrificing classes and all the things that they have in their schedule.Ur friends are those who are there 4 u all the time,giving u words of encouragement,inducing u to be emotionally strong and go through with the illness.I would like to thank my true friends who had been there 4 me and had not left me on my own at all.Kokila,Komalah,eswary,Zaki marsoha,balan anne,thiru anne,noja and all of them.

I knw how worried my mum n my sis were during that time,they called evry hour to check on their litte baby(haha dis is wen I get perasan).Well I dun blame them,blood calls 4 it.Well it was a great exposure of people I know in my life who really care and who are jus there but the couldn’t care less bout u.They were some of them I called friends,I cared for who jus turned their backs on me n there were those who I had never met before who were there together with me.They were those who I had always neglected who came forward at that time to giv me encouragement.I have learnt so much from it.I have learnt not to trust to much and not to untrust to much.Sometimes in life they are people who u nvr met before who turns out to be god sent angels,n sometimes they are those u who call frens who never turn up when u r in need.Well,maybe all I have to say is if ur nt there when im in trouble,then u don’t have the rights to be a part of my happiness :)

Ten Minus One

In our Hearts

We thought of you with love today,
But that is nothing new.
We thought about you yesterday,
And days before that too.
We think of you in silence.
We often speak your name.
Now all we have is memories.
And your picture in frame.
Your memory is our keepsake.
With which we'll never part.
God has you in his keeping.
We have you in our heart.


By Rose de Leon

faun n los

Life as it is...we are all given a chance to make the best out of this life.Asked to define hw does this life mean to u,i dun tink anyone could give any answer without doubts in their mind.People often say life is a roller coster,indeed its true.Wen we are low on the ground,we complain,n wen we are high up?Sometimes we think wat happens to us its the worst that might happen to anyone..but nt till u knw wat others have gone thru..N sometimes we even realize that,but dont knw y,i guess human nature..we still complain.Life is nt easy,who said it was??If its nt easy for u,its nt easy for anyone else.There r gona be lots of thorns n flowers to walk on.We often decide on wat we want but nt all we want is all u get..there are times u have to let go of sometings.Wen i say sometings,i mean things,dreams,wishes n oso people.Yes letting go of people is nt easy,it involves human speciality but also biggest weakness-emotions.Our lives revolve around people,let it be ur family,ur frens or those dat 'u just bump in to'.N wen they exist the equation goes like this people+emotions=attachment :)
Hmm dats y i said its nt easy..well losing someone close to u o someone u love involves a lot of emotional strength.We are never ready to lose someone forever,we tend to take things 4 guaranted forgetting that nothing is permanent in life.When someone leaves unexpectedly,we break down.Because it hurts so much,knwing the fact that the person is gone forever n we nvr had a chance to say goodbye.But on the other hand,have we ever thot wat if we had the chance to bid the final farewell..Imagine knowing the person u r with,the person u love so much is gona be there with u 4 a short while more,knowing that its gona be the last tym ur spending tym with the person.Imagining hw life would be wen the person is gone..realizing that there is ntg u can do to nt make it happen..well its jus harder..But somehow..life is hw it is..

 p.s jus got the news of a fren diagnosed with leukemia...praying that he n his family remain strong in enduring it..