words i couldnt say

In a book- in a box- in the closet
In a line- in a song I once heard
In a moment on a front porch late one june
In a breath inside a whisper beneath the mooon

There it was at the tip of my fingers
There it was on the tip of my tounge
There you were and I had never been that far
There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms
And I let it all slip away

What do I do now that you're gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Theres a rain that will never stop fallin
There a wall that I tried to take down
What I should have said just wouldnt pass my lips
So I held back and now we've come to this
And it too late now

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

What do I do now that your gone
No back up plan no second chance
And no one else to blame
All I can hear in the silence that remains
Are the words I couldnt say

Diwali 2011

Be it Diwali or deepavali this year it falls on 26th october,and now its 12.08 am jakrta time.
Basically the difference in words comes to arise because of d lingua used,diwali(hindi) deepavali(tamil)..and both means festival of lights.
As many have asked me,do i celebrate diwali.Sikhs dont really have the festival called diwali o festival of lights,despite that in sikh calendar on this very same day, one incident took place wer the sikh sixth guru was released from imprisonment-its actually bandi chorr divas(google up for the rest of d history)
But as for me i hv 3 reasons to celebrate this,
1.as i was born half sikh half hindu,my dad carried out his religion n rituals,so i celebrate diwali after him
2.since i hv been majorly following a sikhism,im celebrating bandi chorr divas
3.im a MALAYSIAN n so i clbrate all festivals,frm hari raya to cny,to vasakhi cap goh meh ,ponggal,christmas..n etc

This year will be the 2nd year for us to be clbrating it away from home,and a place wer indians are like super minority..initially i had no mood nor excitement for it..to the extend i dint even knw the date.
My diwali eve this year has been quit pathetic,spent wit a movie,slept,and out of blue decided to clean up,ended up eating porridge,indeed a delicious one made by a dear fren.
As in years before,today i missed how my mum wud venture for last min diwali shopping,buying stuff for prayers and cleaning up.I miss her preseverance,her hard work to make diwali a better day for the family.

Back at home,all relatives and frens are in the midst of preparing for the next day,all having wonderful tym,playing fireworks and eating all the diwali cookies and murukus.We all wish to be there,o even at least jus to be a part of it.Anticipating calls from family,from frens..wishing to spend it with loved ones.
Maybe the part wich hurts a little is that in middle of the festive rush..people like me far and alone jus make no difference to them.
So tonyt its left me,in my room facing my blog finishing a bowl of delicious porridge.(ignore my self-pity) lol

Tym to sleep,and face a new day.Till then happy diwali everyone.

~everyday is diwali,if ur hapy :)

strawberry shortcake

This is a feeling,im feeling,an unindentified feeling
Its like a cloud on my head,blocking my sunshine away
The world is moist,and im the mushroom
If this is is a storm,wer do i strike
If this is the rain,wen will d rainbow appear
I tried taking a step back,but life came a step closer to me

Flaw-less skin

Ever wondered y some gals wear 5 inch thick make up (literally),*hands on chest,eyes rolled up* and walk around on daily basis..
answer is super simple, she has flaws,she needs to hide them,because


FACT OF LIFE : everybody looks at ur flaws and judges u.
Its funny sometyms wen people tend to judge u firstly by looking at ur flaws..and totally ignore ur bright side..come on everybody has flaws,i have flaws and so do u..but isit really dat necessary to change ur whole perception about a person jus because u saw his/her flaws..
Then,what about ones good deeds...dont they count.

Life is not like "everybody loves raymond"...life is like a big tight slap on ur face.No matter who u are,u re nt perfect.and somehow somewer there is someone who is gona hate u.But y not for a start,u as an individual treat those around u well..u dont lose a thing do u?