Titanic

Life
Its like a blank paper they said
So go on child draw what you want,achieve your dreams

Life
Dont wait for things to happen,make them happen they said

Past is just an excuse to miss out on future
You are responsible for your happiness
Think positive they said

Love
Distance is just numbers they said

Love
Fight for it
They said

Happiness
The state of being they said
Magic is in your heart they said


What i say ?
Sail, there are going to be ups and downs
Ups that are gona last a while
Downs that are permanent
Then you sink ,you rust
Just like the titanic

Gone

It was when she smiled her heart out,that turned every head in the room around
It was when she laughed so hard,that she looked incredibly beautiful
It was when she was so contented with life,that she had no regrets
Gathered around with people she loved and those who loved her
Making friends , running around , confident
It was when she believed and had faith that every thing was going to be amazing some day

And thats the 'when' ,she doesnt remember feeling..

Frustrations

Too much love kills you

Indeed 

And the fucked up part is that

Even when people have moved on
Even when years pass
It still hurts as shit much

She 2.0

oh cruel, cruel nights
she thinks you are her only friend
don't you give ways for the lights
she found comfort in your hand

then she smiles to greet her dreams
if only life would be as kind
with bunny rains and milky streams
cherry kisses and chocolate buns

then she prays to never wake up
cause her shivers wont stop the dawn
she fills her tears in a cup
and drinks them all while she mourns

is there anyone out there?
would you lie to me you care?

Tangled

Every new day,she is trying to convince others

Trying to change some things,

Trying to mend those mistakes,

Convincing herself that she has changed

Every new day,she tells you 

About how grown up she is

How she is not the person she was a year ago

That she is strong and still

She knows you come back at times to see

If she really is happy now,if she really has changed

She falls back everyday,every single day

Falls back to where she started

Tangled.

State

I had a dream,

And i saw u in it.
It seemed so real,yet so different.
You refused to recognise what was once there,
You refused to acknowledge what we once made

You dont know,that not even once you left from my memories

You dont know,that i might never let you leave.

You dont know,i cant shut you out no matter how much i try.

You dont know,it hurts knowing i couldnt be the one

What will never change is , what i am now , what you made me

You are that brick. 

FBND E11

"As humans are not a factory made of machines and toys.
We are special and complicated
What our purposes in lives are what our hearts desire
and even the weak spots
We are unique and have different qualitites
You have to watch for a long time
Only then you can see the outline of a person "

love.life.the one who matters

crying.breaking.just missing u so badly.

Bubbles

"People who think that happiness is something that's always within their reach,i wonder how happy they must really be.That woman always gets nervous when she finds herself to be too happy.To that woman happiness is like blowing bubbles while we were kids.The moment she touches the bubbles carrying lights of rainbow around her,they burst.In front of happiness,that woman gives up before even reaching out her hand"

Soul

Pretty hurts, we shine the light on whatever's worst
Perfection is a disease of a nation, pretty hurts, pretty hurts

We try to fix something but you can't fix what you can't see
It's the soul that needs the surgery

May the 2nd

I can fake a smile
I can force a laugh
I can dance and play the part
If that's what you ask
Give you all I am

I can do it
I can do it
I can do it

But I'm only human
And I bleed when I fall down
I'm only human
And I crash and I break down
Your words in my head, knives in my heart
You build me up and then I fall apart
'Cause I'm only human

-Christina Perri -

couldnt find the right words

https://soundcloud.com/itsjustashley/suicide

Time

For now im still sitting here
but everything and everyone around me
they are not the same anymore

many came and left

and many are not what they once were

And the time,the moments all gone away

too fast,too fast i say

leaving no track to follow

For now im still sitting here 

thinking im the same person i was yesterday

but who am i kidding

she is long gone 

Today is the day i thought was very far away

You and them are the people i never thought id meet

From strangers to friends in split seconds

And from everything to nothing in halfs 

Today is the day that was very far away 

Why is everything chasing me

Why is everything happening this fast

No,I cant cope

No,I cant run

Wait for me time,im afraid.